Thanks for the update. It makes sense that reading posts in newcomers would refresh some sadness. I don't think this is the most healthy place to visit when you are moving onward in making a new life, simply b/c you can emotionally relate with the pain here.
I hope you will occassionaly drop by to say hello. Take good care of yourself. ((Coconut))
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!