Your W is having a really difficult dinner pulling the trigger. Having a great night with her family creates additional dissonance in her mind so she tries to dig in her heels to validate her decision of leaving. She has no control over her happiness and this is how she thinks she can exert it?
It's so incredibly miserable for you and I feel you on the increasing numbness and dulling of the pain. You can only endure it so long before you feel nothing.
Your attitude of gratefulness despite your circumstances (it could be worse, because you and your children still be in) is healthy. You're alive, have the means to provide for your family, food, shelter, etc.
I think it may be a while before your W pulls the trigger or there may be some sort of event. IDK, just a feeling.
