Hi Cali! Seems as though you are doing as well as I expected! I'm so happy for you to have made your own space and making it your own. It is freeing... and a little different to build our lives to suite in our own way now, right? Like, we always kept a compromising-mind in play for so many years.
We have experienced many things in somewhat similar fashion, and are on somewhat similar timelines... and you have remained pretty status-quo, my bro... hanging tough and finding your way..
I read where you mentioned about mlcr not sharing the real stuff,the deep and dark w op... you know... that is actually something I think about, myself. I mean, I guess specifically, for example, when xfil passed... I wondered what xh shared with hww, and how his dad did the same to xh when he was a kid that he is doing... and how that really took hold of him... well, that among other things.
Like you, I got some insight when mlcr came back 'round... and shared things. What I gathered, was mlcr did not, in fact, show his real self to hww... and had no interest... and frequently made comments like, "she will never get it..."
No biggie... but just interesting... like you- I just find somethings experimentally interesting.... yet many things completely dis-interesting...
Glad you are well... glad your son is well
And yes... being alone can be so totally wonderful... and I don't think you can truly be happy with anyone until you reach that point. It is then that you never sell yourself short...
