Thank you for coming back and sharing this with us. I know many will find renewed motivation and hope from your story.
I wish you all the best for rebuilding a newer better R.
R 25 years M 14 years S11 & S13 Working on it alone since Oct 2014 M in trouble a lot earlier (~2 years) Feb 2016. 1st R chat in a yr. Next R chat Aug'17 Still together