Im still trying to understand what you are gaining by being dark. To me, being dark was a supplement to the other things that I was doing. If youve read DR, then the basic structure is to set goals, work to achieve them, and monitor the impact. But I dont really know what going dark as an action does if you arent actively doing the rest of it. From the recent posts, it sounds like you 'are who you are' and your W can make a choice to be with you or not. This process is abut self-reflection and growth. I cant tell you what you need to work on, that has to come from within. I have some thoughts, but I only know what you post here. You say you are a self-reflective guy, but if you cant see any of your own shortcomings, then I think you arent looking in the right places.
Honestly, thats why I changed my name to this. I want to remind myself constantly that I can improve. It could be small things, but there are always steps forward that can be made.
In my opinion, being dark allows you the space to do that. You become less involved in pursuit of W that your attention is focused where it needs to be. Without this part, I kind of agree that being dark IS a game of chicken.
