Ongoing...

[RBG80]

Hey guys, Just thought I'd throw a little update to you all.

It would appear that the W is still struggling and I've had a number of her family members tell me that she "miserable" and "regretting" her decision. I don't think she regrets leaving me, so not sure what it is she regrets?....

I received a random text from her last weekend at 11pm on a Saturday when I know that she was drinking with a friend. The message was simply referring to the fact that her friend has a particular CD. Now there was no reason for her to feel a need to express this to me, let alone text me. She also had a go at me and said "its ok for you, you've rebuilt your life, you're happy now".

When she sees me I'm smiling, Ive dropped around 60lbs and feel great. I'm talking with a woman and it may turn into something (it may be nothing), but its made me see that happiness can be found elsewhere.

My W is having difficulty in obtaining credit and is still living with her Mother (with no plans to move out yet). I guess she feels that her life is falling apart. As I'm no longer falling apart and am getting on with things, I think she feels that I've rebuilt my life - and yes I'm on the way, but she has no idea what I've had to go through to get where I am. She has no idea how dark my thoughts were and now I almost worry that she might want to come back!

I've accepted my situation (although this is improved by the possibility of someone new), and I just don't want to be put in that position where I have the option to go back or move forward.

I feel that at this point the chance of a full, working reconciliation would be maybe 10%. I think I'd only be going back for my S (wrong reason).