stayed as dark as I could over the week so far. W seems to be settling into the idea for a few days as she does not seem to be investigating me any more. She emailed celeb yesterday and said she was doing everything she could to make it out to LA this summer. She sent him a picture of a bird in a cage with it's wing cut off. the bird was looking out the window at a heart in the distance. It's so exasperating to see this kind of thing. She is so free to do as she wishes and apparently she still sees herself as caged and de-winged. Celeb replied but only to wish her good luck at her upcoming art convention and to say "hang in there." It's become pretty annoying that he keeps her going with a few sentences but never tries to get anything from her and never shuts it down either. so weird. I am dark this few weeks on the advice of my DB coach but I can't hold it in much longer. I'm going to confront her after our next session no matter what happens. Better to have things in the light. I feel like this darkness is turning into a game because I know things that she doesn't know. All of this happens on the backdrop of a perfectly calm and orderly household. It makes my head spin.
Despite all this I actually feel pretty decent this morning. I am going straight from work to my extra judo session so I will be out all day till late. I know working out hard is always good for my mood as well. W seemed perfectly chipper about me being gone till late tonight.
I will see what comes up next. Hopefully, by next time I post it will be about what happened when I outed her emailing.
