Hi Seeker. Wow. I did my hmwk and read your entire thread.
Here goes...
Read up on detachment. If youre unclear, read the al anon daily meditations. Attend al anon mtgs.
Your wife had a meltdown. She would have benefited from al anon. Did she ever go?
Next, OM. Im so glad you chose not to confront her. This is only specific to you. Why cant she date? You guys have been separated for months. In her crazy thinking, shes "moving on."
Definitely dont call her. Continue with that. Thats a 180 Hanging up first, perfect! Because it helps you practice healthy detachment. Its "neither kind or unkind."
Coming from the disease, a symptom is the thrill you seek. Not being able to balance emotions and situations.
Maintain your serenity. The less you engage, the better for you.
Last one, you seem to have learned alot on relationships. Has all that reading helped your relationship with those around you? Have you practiced what youve learned with your loved ones.
Take care of S. Breathing mask on you first.
M 42 H 39 T10 (-2yrs separation) S8 D5 DD 7/30/11 (EA&PA) Reconciled 6/2013 Separation in works 1/2017