Never good enough

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So H came home. Was not pleased to find out I had shoveled with S. Proceeds to ask why the kids were with my mom. I nicely said, because I also had plans for tonight that ended up being canceled. He said if you told me I wouldn't have gone out. I said I made sure I had someone to be with them when I made my plans. It wasn't intended to be a backhanded comment, but that's how it came out. He said the only person I have would be your mom too - I can't ask my family. I didn't say anything but felt like saying that isn't my problem. He then asked if I wanted to figure out schedules like every other weekend. I said we'll work it out, but in my head I was screaming No! These are my children! I spend every waking hour with them. I take them every where. I stay up with them when they are sick. My life with my kids cannot be reduced to this!

Then I thought H had gone to the bedroom for the night. I had just finished dinner while reading the blogs here. Left my tablet open while I went to rinse my dish. When I heard him coming, I left the water running and ran to close the tablet. Got to it just as he came around the corner so he saw me doing it. I know his curiosity is peaked as to what I was trying to hide. Fully expecting some snooping to start on his end.

My tablet and phone are password protected so I'm not really worried about that. Trying to figure out where to hide my DR book and journal. Would put them in my gun safe which is also password protected, but since its next to my bed and he's there, that's not going to work. How do people lie and cheat? This is a lot of work and I'm not even doing anything wrong