Cherry. Getting on with a few bumps

[Cherry]

Thanks surfer, we had gotten to a stage he was somewhat better, it just appears to be a little regression. I guess we have gone/going through our own stages of grief when it hits us a little harder. But he knows he is loved, he has a lot of love and attention not just from me, but my family, MIL etc. He also has a steady routine, doesn't want for anything, and even through a somewhat difficult pregnancy (who still has all day sickness at 8.5 months!!), I've continued to take him places and had fun. Soon I will be starting my maternity leave- so will have uninterrupted time with S as well as new baby.

Gordie, thank you so much that's very kind of you and nice to hear. It is shocking, but waywards are that, doing as they feel and never ceasing to surprise you by their new shocking traits.

I've been quite productive of late, I'm still in the process of re-doing the house ( maybe this is the nesting). I read things that will boost my pma, and if I'm watching something, I'll watch something uplifting, travel documentaries or lighthearted comedy- nothing that has me dwelling; but rather something which shall focus me, and give me something exciting to look forward to in the future (new places to explore). I find that I become more down and depressed when I look to the future regarding my love life; so I try to stop these thoughts in their tracks. Nothing is ever a definite in life, or a guarantee. And worrying about the future will not help, so I'm trying my upmost to live in the here and now.