Addendum. A few words going to bed last night, as W wanted me to look for something for her, and I wasn't happy about it, given her continued Some words about the bedroom move coming up, and I said it would be good as well. She then said she was looking forward to her new bathroom. I said it wasn't fair on the kids to start doing things like that, and that SS16 and I had put in a new cleaning regime to ensure bathroom is OK for all in the house, including the females. W said that she was going to have it anyway, I said it was just having a tantrum and exerting control and penalising the kids. Then, just before settling down to sleep, WW said she loved me. I said she had a funny way of showing it. She said it was true, nevertheless. My final response was 'what do you expect me to say to that' and she said she didn't expect me to say anything.
Not feeling great this morning, preying on my mind again. I woke up early (4:30 and didn't get back to sleep before my 5am alarm).
Going to get back to some mindfulness and try and clear my head.
-- Me: 47 WW: 35 SS: 17 D: 5 T: 7 yrs Engaged: 2 yrs OEA confirmed: August 17 2016 ongoing since April 2016. OEA continues (with occasional breaks) BD2 - W says will visit OM in Jan 18