Jujub, I can read a lot of anger in your post and I fully understand your feeling. Unfortunately it's only you who are making yourself like this. Not your WH who has checked out. Like you I felt that life was unfair and it is but as Zeus and Ginger are saying this is what it is and we only have two options: either blame ex or working hard at making our life better.
We can't change what happened, but we can learn to appreciate what we hav now (something we never used to). I know it is so hard to fight negativity but if I can, so can you.
