I think you shocked her that you have the place looking nice and all of the fixings for your guests, i.e., right down to what she could eat. Well done! It shows her that you are strong, independent and can plan parties too.
Continue as you have been. I'm very proud of you!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
