The high road: rocky with a great view

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Just journaling. I'm going to end up laughing my a$$ off someday at this MLC/D adventure, honest I will.

My week of GAL, studying and work for those following:

Monday, massage after two days of skiing (a very good thing) and studying.

Tuesday, back to work with my new, young "hottie" Samoan teacher who is working on his special education certification by being my new teaching partner. Glad the other temporary partner I had after my concussion is gone. She was awful and I stood up for myself and our program for the first time by saying I would quit if she was given the position...she was that bad. Admin scrambled to appease me (yes, I'm feeling a bit powerful), found and hired the new guy and our program is already back on track. Phew! And this cougar gets to spend 6.5 hours a day with eye candy (he's happily married).
My art student came that afternoon and delighted me with his 12 year old view of the world (he is on the spectrum) yet again.

Weds, I listened to my therapist once again ask me why I'm still not angry (I always explain I have been, but it does not rule my life) or sad (again, I explain I sometimes am, but not for long) and how I should consider dating now (! Not ready yet!! I couldn't do that to someone else when I'm not ready...how selfish!).

Then I met a friend and had a great time at a new ceviche place that was amazing...I had to go tell the chef how much I liked it. He seemed pretty happy about the praise...I never would have taken the time to do that 2 years ago...too shy!

Thursday basketball practice (coaching special olympic team).

Friday our second set of bball games...we won one! The kids are happy just playing, but their skills are improving!

Then today...LOL. As I said, haven't seen or heard from XH since before New Years. Didn't see him last weekend while I was skiing. Today two ladies I met last Saturday at my ski meetup asked me to join them so I met them there. We did a few runs and on the second lift ride as we were almost at the top, XH was skiing under the lift and looked up. He was staring, so I gave a little wave and he waved back. My friends and I came off and took our time (we were on two separate chairs) and then started skiing down. I noticed XH was waiting down a ways so I skiied over and said hi, but explained I needed to catch up to my friends. The ladies and I skied down to the next lift, stopping often as they were both very good skiers and I had told them to feel free to "teach me their magic ways".

As we were in the lift line just outside of the small lodge (a yurt), XH started walking over with a beer in hand, telling me it was fantastic and I must try it. He chatted for a bit and was his old charming self (I was checking the time for one of the ladies and dropped my phone in the snow...twice...he picked it up for me...embarassing.). He had recommended the beer and the food to them and as we were moving through the line he went back to an outside table, alone, and I pressed them to not eat there, but at the main lodge. So we did. One of the ladies kept saying how nice he was and that he seemed keen on me, so I explained who he was. They were both shocked. So I told them my story as we ate in the lodge bar (with a great band playing). Funny, I saw XH walk in and pretended not to see him...he did not stop by that time.

Its all very wierd. I'm starting to just write about it to keep track and see how the behavior evolves!