Figured I'd split my post today into two pieces. Some quick journaling.
Birthday today. Woke up early and exercises with my dad. Doing that once a week still, ever since he retired in July. Went to work and my boss had brought in breakfast for my team for my birthday. My guys brought in lunch for it too and also had a cake made. All a surprise and it was amazing how great the thought and energy from all of them made me feel. One of my better days since all this started!
Came home not expecting much from my W. Walked in the door and said hi to W and she ignored it, but I saw that W and D decorated the kitchen with banners and gifts and a cake. W bought the cake and D decorated it. Having no expectations I was peasantry surprised. I made my dinner and we all ate together on the couch. At one point I was rubbing my leg bc it itched and W asked me to stop rubbing it. Strange.
After dinner we lounged around for a bit on the couch. I snuggled with D in proximity to W that normally would have seen her get up and move or recoil away from me. She didn't move a muscle. As D moved around I found my arm touching Ws foot and W did not move it. Again, that'd normally get a recoil. Not taking anything away from it other than it's something different. Just observing.
W went upstairs so D and I could build a pillow fort with the couch cushions and D and I played in it for an hour or so. Joked and laughed with W and D for about 30 minutes after that before bed. Felt more normal tonight than it has in a while but who knows. Some strange behavior from W today.
A great day for me though. All the stuff my coworkers did for me today really helped me seemtheres a large group of people who think I'm an ok guy. The small party that W put together was a welcome surprise as well. Going to bed happier ham I've been in a while. I know this doesn't change my situation with W but it has helped my mood.
Me39 M11 : T13 D9 BD 5/31/16 In House S until 6/21/17 Divorced 10/5/18
