I'm sorry that you are feeling down and in the dumps today. I think a lot of people have bad days, many years down the road. It is normal and to be expected. Don't beat yourself up about it.
After I read your sitch, I think that your WH is the ultimate example of trying to keep a "plan B". I don't say that to make you feel like a 2nd choice, but this seems like a classic case.
He seems to be enjoying keeping you close. He can feel you pining for him, even when you do or say nothing. Every time he looks over his shoulder, there you are.
I would be willing to bet a million dollars that you you filed for D and had him served, he would crap his pants and come running home. I am not suggesting you do that if that is not what you want, because you would have to be willing to follow through. It is just a feeling that I get after reading your thread, it seems that he is just stringing you along because he knows you will come along.
Hang in there and keep your head up.
M-42 W-40 S-12 D-10 Together-13 years Married-10 years Separated-6/2016 ILYBINILWY-7/2016 EA-4/2016 (best guess) PA-7/2016 (best guess)
