Hanging and hoping....Foundation building

[BillyHo]

So last night I was talking with a friend about my sitch. She was telling me not to be too hard on myself. I was saying that there were some things I needed to change about myself. She said don't change anything unless it's a change for yourself. Today thinking about the convo I realized I was putting all the blame on myself and wanting to change to get W back. I looked in the mirror and said you are a good man, a great dad and you were a great husband and anyone including my W would be lucky to have me. So it's time to stop waiting around hoping she'll come back and really start to GAL.
I still have a couple of small things I want to work on but my W is the one that gave up not me. I didn't do this to her and I can't fix it for her. I love her to death but I shouldn't be worried about her coming back she should be worried about losing me. If not now, one day she will realize that and the choice will be mine if she deserves a 2nd chance, not the other way around. It is on her that she is taking me for granted, not on me. I feel like a weight is lifted off my shoulders. Not sure if it will last but I feel great about myself right now.