Yes, I'm not sure what I really want. I do still love her but so much damage has been done.....
Right there with you. I do still love my ex and part of me always will. But the damage has been done and I'm not so sure its irreversible.
Keep your head up, my friend. The roller coaster will come to a stop soon enough. It's up to you whether you ride it again.
There are moments in this life when you are so confident in the rightness of your actions, that not even for a second do you consider the option that you might be wrong.