A WW? (7)

[lt0402]

Yeah, I've done a handful of sessions with a DB coach and have found it helpful. She's advocated for me to find a new MC and take W there. It's been since end of November that I talked to the DB coach (who is awesome) and I'd probably be well served to do another soon. I guess I'm just frustrated and tired from the lack of any positive response from W, even when I've put myself out there for her. I know I need to rebuild the friendship but there's no opening for it. Glad you mentioned this bc I'll make an appointment tomorrow.

Some quick journaling. Took off from work yesterday at noon to go to a doctors appointment for D. Met her and W there. 3 of us were cramped in a small room waiting for the doctor for an hour. D was hanging on W the first 5 minutes or so and we were all talking. D started to hang out and joke around with me and W suddenly started up with the "would you two stop shouting" and "how about we all don't talk for 5 minutes" types of comments. D and I started talking quieter but I'm not ok with her telling us when we can and can't speak. I did not address it with her there so maybe it came off as passive aggressive but it's such a silly thing for her to say. Had a great time with D regardless.

W also said some wierd stuff. D was being silly and joking about Ws boobs. (We are pretty open about stuff). W said something to the effect of "yeah, I've got really nice boobs, it's a shame they're going to waste". Unsure how to take that. Also, we were watching a show later that day and somehow the topic of sex came up. We have had that talk with D before so she's familiar. D asked W "have you and daddy had sex" to which W responded yep, we have you don't we. Then D asked "is daddy good at sex"? W responded with I don't know but D kept asking and W just played it off. I was surprised she didn't use the opportunity to try to hurt me with a negative response there. Sad that I'm at the point that I chalk that up as a positive.

Decided to take the rest of the day off from work and told W and D I'd see them at home (drove seperately). W seemed physically angry about this. W went to the store and D and I hung out until dinner. Did dinner as a family and then we all played with the inflatable beach ball in the house until bed. Had a fun time laughing with everyone.

Not a lot outside of that. Just grinding through this thing. I did meet with L today around the new house we are talking about moving to, as well as setting up a budget, and a couple other random things. Good feedback from her and very helpful. No downside to moving right now. I did ask the L, as she sees this stuff every day and I'm assuming my situation is not different, if this thing will come to a head at some point. She said yes and it's usually because one person gets sick of it. It's what I'd thought so I'll continue steeling myself for it and also working on improving my R with my D. I need to warm up to my W some more I think but without her being open to it it's probably just wasted effort.

Heading to bed. Gym in the morning. Looking forward to the weekend with my D!