These months are so painful 2016. This is one of the hardest experiences you will have to endure. But you will endure it because you have no choice.
I promise you it will get better. Time will heal this and eventually these feelings will not feel so sharp and visceral. Just give it time. You will get through this. You will not always feel this way. Feel the pain and just ride with it. You are mourning, you are denying, you are angry, you are bargaining, you are begging, you are guilty. It's part of the grief cycle and eventually you will accept.
Right now you probably don't want to accept. We can spend all day debating the walk away spouse But really that part is out of your control.
What is in your control is 1. Being there for your child 2. Self care 3. Preparing for your future...lawyer, living arrangements, developing your own support team to help you, getting rid of depending on your ex for anything.
