I have checked in on your sitch over the last couple of months. I am sorry to hear that she filed. I do not see any confirmation of OM in your signature. Do you suspect any OM? All of the talk about "the wrong chemistry" seems to be part of that ugly "script" when there is someone else in the picture and they have a new point of reference.
Listen. I know you say that you are steady.
I know that you say that you have no anger.
These are are all good things, but I am not sure that I believe you.
This is not over until you say that it is over.
She might have filed, but those are only pieces of paper. They are not flesh, they are not bone. They are paper.
Are you ready for it to be over? Have you truly thrown in the towel because you feel like you have no choice?
It is all up to you. You are ultimately in control of this.
It is not ever over until YOU say it is. Repeat that out loud.
If you are truly ready for it to be over, then wave the white flag. We all would certainly understand.
But if you are not, then don't. Continue to DB for as long as you can stand it.
I will be praying for you, whatever your final decision is.
Stay strong brother.
--Matrix
M-42 W-40 S-12 D-10 Together-13 years Married-10 years Separated-6/2016 ILYBINILWY-7/2016 EA-4/2016 (best guess) PA-7/2016 (best guess)
