I know you've heard this story about bomb drop for me. I went to my therapist, shoved myself as far into the corner of the couch as I could, and said, "This is all my fault." And she said to me, "Really? Wow, D, you are powerful. You have so much power that you made someone do all those things to you that your ex did. You have so much power that you singlehandedly ended a marriage."
My point is...we have to own our part in life. We have to own those actions that we take. But we have to own only the actions. We cannot own the results.
People do what they do. Stuff unfolds as it does. We can control what we can. But as your friend, I cannot let you take blame for things you have no control over.
G, things havent turned out as you hoped, but, that isnt a reflection on you.
I am sorry you feel lonely sometimes. I know what that feels like.
Keep moving forward. Keep remembering who you are. Right now, you have a lot on your place. I think when you have less, you will begin to see some things happen.
