I'd like to say I love being alone. I did, but not anymore. However, my mantra is your mantra.
I reached an all time new level of pathetic. I joined some private Fb group that was "suggested" to me for pug owners. Only I don't actually own one. I just joined to look at cute videos and pictures of them.
Unfortunately the lonliness is gripping me like a vice. No matter what I do, what I occupy my time with, I can't get rid of the human condition.
I did really read a great blog post about "Strong Independent Woman Syndrome" last night. It's about how they deny they "need" love, affection, and intimacy because that would make them seem needier. That they deny they feel lonliness without it.
I tried that for years. But I remind myself I am not "needy" or not "weak" for feeling a gaping hole only one thing could fill.
Because all of the hobbies, business, even time with my friends (which had dwindled these days, sadly) are not things that can fill this space.
But I still live with it. I still enjoy what is enjoyable.
