Maybe I missed it, but did you ever read DB or DR? I see where you talked about the PIES from Beam but I don't see a list of goals anywhere as per DB. That's why you're in a holding pattern.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.