These days are completely natural - I had plenty of ups and downs over the last 2 years. days where I was waiting for her texts and days where I barely thought of her and was able to detach.
The fact that she's opening up to you on feelings and being transparent is a good sign. Give her the space. Hold out hope but at the same time work on yourself and try not to focus on her but on the positive change you can bring about in yourself.
Me: 40 W: 45 T: 13, M: 11 1 D: 9
Suspect A 6/15 ILBINILWY 8/15, and 3/16 EA/PA Discovered 3/16 EA admitted 3/16 W Moved out 4/16 W opens R talk and says A over 1/17