Some days I'm good; today I'm not so good. I'm not detached. I'm still letting W's moods dictate how I am feeling. One day she is warm and friendly; the next she is icy cold. Ugh. I'm still on her roller coaster. I'm not calling or texting her, but I still check my phone 10x a day hoping that she is reaching out to me. My expectations are still >0. Finally, given our 20 year marriage, her lack of income, and our large number of children, the separation agreement numbers are looking to be terrible for me. Ugh.
Gordie 40s W 40s M20+ kids 2016 BD W fantasy affair w OM1 I do everything wrong 2017 I start to DB W says TLTL files for D PA w OM2 2018 I do LRT W drops filing and OM2 situation slowly improving
