10 months since she said i dont love you (5)

[Natus]

Its funny being back and the roller coaster emotions returned. Its taken me this long to realise that i have not let go, just buried it deep.

I dont know, if its the new year spirit but im starting to feel like maybe its going to be okay. No anger, not hurt (okay maybe a little bit when i dwell on it)but yea i can look at her now and go okay, we are at different places with different wants in life.

I want a family (thats not new) while her interest seems to be more centered around her.

To sum up over the week, i've accepted limbo. Im okay with it, it doesnt mean anything until i decide to get off.