Am I in withdrawal ... will he ever wake up

[Lana_71]

Hi a bit anxious today....I feel like sending an email to end everything .... I fe l we are both stuck me afraid of leaving and him not sure.... I feel like sending an email saying something like" I have been standing around 2 1/2 years for our marriage ... I thought I can save it but after two years I believe what has been broken will not be fixed . Maybe I was naive maybe I was hopeful but now I realize it is time to wake up and move along. I was afraid for the kids well fair , I was afraid of missing him but I guess kids are doing well and I will ensure they continue... he will always be their father and when he feels better he'll reach for them... I sm sorry I was not able to model a healthy relation for them and I hope it will not affect their future. I am not blaming him nor want to change or fix. It seems w both changed ...." I know if I mention D most probably he will go with it.. might be what he is waiting for....but I don't want to live with someone not sure he want us...so many thought I guess my hormones are playing ... will not Send my thoughts yet will sleep on it for a while..