MLC is textbook

[2Tours]

Well its been a while since I've posted. I am filing for D next week, after months of counseling, standing, 180's, nothing worked. WS has yet to shed even a tear over the collapse over our M. I have gotten to the point where I see no hope and the D is something that I need to move on.

As things unfold, the only emotional response I get from WS is around the financial settlement of our D. Nothing else elicits a real reaction, as she is so self centered she wants everything her way.

Our therapist has told me to prepare for WS to at sometime have a real reaction to this whole thing. She said she's seen it everytime and that the level of compartmentaliizng that WS has done since her childhood to deal with her sexua abuse, just can't hold on much longer. Her thought is that with her depression, menapause and pressure from her job, all heavily contributed to her current state.

So in March WS is having a hysterectomy and that could impact this. She's moved into his house and she seems different to everyone that sees her.

I have dated a little and actually have a date this coming Thursday with someone that I am really excited about. The most important thing I have learned in all of this is that I am happy alone and feeling that moving on is very freeing.

I am prepared to move on with my life and I am taking care of getting myself ready for whatever happens. I know that some of you may think I should continue standing, but living in a small town and WS out and about with him, puts me in a place where I don't want to be.....so I move on.

Altair, I hope you find what you're looking for, I can see the sacrifices you have made and that you continue to make. Do what your hear tells you and only do what you want to do!

Bttrfly. Get well....I am sure you're watching your Pats right now, so enjoy and take care of yourself...you're otherwise doing great!