Changing forum is not a magic solution and will not change anything unless you do too. Here are some wonderful people with some long stories. I came here to be amongst others who have stood longer than me. To be inspired to keep going and to dig deeper. I am glad I moved here and feel more at home here. I hope you do too.
Did you ever check out ForeverYoungs threads as I suggested a few months ago. He stayed at home with a W that was done and wanted a D. Slowly very slowly things improved. They are not 100% yetbut recently started MC to work on it.FY took 5 years to reach this stage. I find that incredible but daunting.
There are others here too who have incredible stories. Check them out yourself.
Now back to you. I don't like how you state your goals.You undermine yourself in each one. Rework your goals to S.M.A.R.T. Specific Measurable Achievable Results oriented/ Realistic Timed / trackable And state them in the positive .
Best wishes
R 25 years M 14 years S11 & S13 Working on it alone since Oct 2014 M in trouble a lot earlier (~2 years) Feb 2016. 1st R chat in a yr. Next R chat Aug'17 Still together