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[Moose42]

Thanks for the replies all. I feel that way about the D talk as well. Although in the back of my mind I wonder if it is part of her plan B.
I had a lot to do with the way the M went. Not long after our D past in 2010 the intimacy slowed down. We started drinking heavy,got us into financial trouble. I just let myself go to hell.
My biggest regret is that I didn't get the family into grief counseling. My W was able to slow down on the drinking but I couldn't. I stopped drinking for 16 months(2014-2015) but didn't attend A.A meetings or work the steps. Fell off the wagon when BD.
The W seemed to begin shutting down back in 13(in hindsight). She started losing interest in things and kinda stopped calling friends and family.
She got into games on phone and kindle and reading a ton of romance novels.
Looking back now, in my drinking days I didn't even recognize any of this(I guess that is why it is considered a selfish disease).
So I have a ton to work on. My goals are to stay sober and work the 12 step program. Do the best I can to save the M.Work on the finances. Become a stronger, mentally healthy man.
Been working on the physical aspect. Got a gym membership,lost 60 lbs and doing strength training. Sorry for rambling. Just trying to get my info out. Thanks for listening.