Am I in withdrawal ... will he ever wake up

[Lana_71]

Hi... I guess I am too sensitive today and I end up blowing it on my mom... well for last couple of days there was some tension... I guess I stopped trying to please everyone... I was trying to help her with house all the time but some how she always find the things that I am not doing well and tell me about them..like my daughter did not brush her teeth and I did not notice or their hair or one dish not cleaned properly....the problem is this behaviour is the same I end up doing earlier with my husband my younger sister and my kids... focusing on what they are not doing right rather that the positives they bring or what r they doing right...thinking I am doing them a favour.. what a stupid person I was..I did so many mistakes with h rather than preserving the relation.... I know I have the to go forward.... I know my h is in a state whereby he feels he will never measure up...he felt a failure and I participated ... anyway one day if we ever have an honest conversation I'll talk about it.. I don't know if mom understood... I am sure she felt hurt but I cried saying I need her to tell me I am the best mom not that I am sloppy ... I know I will never measure up to her expectation as unfortunately h knew he can't measure up to mine ...hence I stopped trying to please as probably he stopped long time ago...