JR, I am so sorry you're going through this brother. That back and forth today just sounds deflating. I can see how it'd be exhausting and demoralizing. FG is spot on about the angst of how and when the next unexpected mini BD will come. It's so hard to be in a state of readiness 24hrs a day and that in and of itself can be exhausting as well. I'd bet you did a better job of handling it than you think though.
I am very happy to hear that you all agree on the 50/50 custody piece. Your kids are key here and will need you strong and ready to guide them through this. Remember that you are their rock and they will look to you for stability. You have fought and continue to fight the good fight and should be proud of yourself for weathering this. Stand tall and know that you are doing what is right.
All that said, we are here for you and know what you are feeling. Stay strong brother. You are a strong man and you'll get through this trough in the roller coaster. Here for you bud.
Me39 M11 : T13 D9 BD 5/31/16 In House S until 6/21/17 Divorced 10/5/18
