Never good enough

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Not even awake 5 minutes and he's on me, telling me he has an appointment with the attorney next week. He wants us to use the same person and I said no.

I told him, I just can not afford this. I took out loans to pay off credit cards and things around the house from my 401k. It literally takes 1/2 my paycheck. So I told him, you have to pay half of that and I know you don't have that.

There was no emotion in my statement, just fact. He started screaming at me, if this is how your going to play it.. then said if you worked more than 30 hours we wouldn't be in this position.

He seems to forget the reason I work these hours was for our kids. I get them on and off the bus and I take care if all their activities. I'm busy, its not from laziness.

Anyway, when he started screaming, I said I'm not going to talk to you like this and walked away. I didn't do anything to deserve such animosity. He wants a divorce not because I'm not a good person or even that we don't get along, but simply because I don't fit the perfect person in his mind.