Hi cc, you're right about the anger and crazymaking it puts in your brain. I let it get to me yesterday but thankfully I was able to let it go. I need to keep being friendly even though it's not easy.
Rereading my last post I feel like I took a few steps back. I'm glad I didn't react because it was all me.
W took the kids to go eat tonight (we agreed to have a mid-week night for her on my weeks since I have ever Saturday). Afterwards she came over and we ended up hanging out for an hour or two. I saw some of her old self, it was nice. She told me a lot about her work. Then she told me if it was snowing tomorrow she wasn't leaving. I listened and realized if she is telling the truth she may be trying to go back to a different place and time. She is going back to where we lived in grad school where step in laws are. It was a happy time and place for us. She told me she is hanging out with a friend from then. This friend, w, and our friend who was killed were all good friends who worked together and always hung out before we moved. W is reconnecting with her. She also arranged a play date with our late friend's son while she had the kids there at Christmas. Interesting because her son's dad is a jerk and w and I did not care for him. During our conversation she told me she missed living there. This isn't the first time she has said that, the last time she mentioned it I told her I missed living there too and she told me if I ever found a job there she would like move back. Not indicating together though.
