Love is a decision - my story

[Seeker7]

JRuss I am sorry to hear about your sitch and hope that she has an awakening. For me I have much more peace and joy now then in years because I have recommitted my faith in God and am letting him handle what I can not. I depend on Him for my joy and happiness. I know He has a plan for me but I just do not know what it is. So I have faith that He will provide me with what He thinks is best for me. People around me even say I am much happier now. I completely understand that she may never come back and have came to peace with that. I am living my life the way I should have a long time ago.

My W still to today will tell people that she still loves the old me and had a great first decade of M. My problem was not who I was but the person that I became because of my addiction. Not saying she will come back but I can not predict the future. I have been able to be happy while detaching and having hope. I could be different then most but I do not know. All I do know is that she has never brought up the D word but that does not mean she will not want one. I have almost 9 months before she can even file legally. What I am doing is everything i can to improve my odds of me saving my M. I have seen countless of stories of a lot worse sitchs then mine that have had success. What makes me different then them? What make any of us different then them?