If you are on this board there's a 95% chance you are headed for D. No amount of books or DB'ing is going to change that. If you let go of the idea that you are going to somehow turn this thing around, you will save a lot of heartache and emotional energy. You are going to need it also - because this is a long, painful, process.
Me-45, W-37, T-10 yrs, M-9 yrs D -7 yrs, S-5 yrs BD-5/3/16, D filed 6/8/16