My WW and the Great Sandi2 Experiment - part 2

[Chris73]

Just back from the gym. Man did I need that.

I can't even begin to explain how surreal it is to spend half my time today talking to lawyers discussing divorce and the other half of my day finalizing itinerary details for our trip to Disney.

I'm going to get deep here for a minute but does anyone ever think that somehow there is karma involved in all of this?

...When I was 28 I got involved with a woman who had just gotten a divorce but her ex-H had just returned to their home in hopes of patching things up. They had two kids together and they were both very young at the time. We worked together and saw each other in secret. Eventually she moved out, our relationship became public, and I temporarily took over the role of the father figure. I was good to the kids and I truly was in love with their mother at the time. But looking back now I can see the situation from the father's point of view. How emotionally distraught he must have been knowing that someone else was spending more time with his kids than he was.

I know that everyone is responsible for their own decisions but every now and then I think that maybe my sitch right now is payback for my poor judgment back then.

I guess maybe this is a sign of self-loathing? IDK...