W texted asking about taxes. We exchanged a few texts over this. Then I asked about seeing D10. W replied- you know, I’m sure your intentions are good and I thank you for that. But that this point in time, I just don’t see the need for this to go any further. She is finally getting settled into life and I think right now it is unnecessary to confuse her. I hope you understand. W- I'm sorry. But things are finally settling down and D is about to be rocked again. I have to explain to her that my mom has ALS. So I just think that life needs to remain constant for her at this time. I really hope you understand.
I have not replied, as I do not know what to say.
Back in October W told me to back off from D and MIL. (W said both D and MIL were bad mouthing me so I agreed to back off)
These texts led to a mini break down. Some reasons, I felt rejected all over again. I feel that w is just fine without me and bringing me back into their lives is nothing she’s interested in. (which in my eyes means no R) W has lost 2 grandparents she was close to while with me and I believe I was a great support to her, so naturally with MIL’s disease I wish I could be there for W. I can’t believe W really thinks having D's other parent (me), the only other constant parent in D’s life is not good for her, especially now. Someone else is that support for both of them and that hurts. I know I’m doing some mind reading, but from my side of the fence, W is with SOW, which D is settling into. No reason to leave SOW cus it would “rock” their lives again. WTF. W was just fine rocking our lives (Which W apologized for one night over the phone in Nov) Live’s will continue to be rocked obviously by the natural progression of life, yet not because I’m coming back into the picture. It seems like W’s world is falling apart and so much is going on, which I would hope would shake her back to me but it seems as though the opposite is happening really feel's as though I've lost this battle.
What I wish to respond with is “I do not understand how not having her other parent in her life is best, However I respect your decision. It must be very difficult for you to have so much on your plate regarding MIL and D. I truly hope they are well” I wish I could tell her I want to be there for them…but idk if that’s wise.
Things to remember, it’s not all about me. W truly believe’s this is what's best for D. Those texts change nothing, I still don’t see either of them, I still don’t talk to them. I am still here moving forward.
-how many more times will I (& my support system help) pick up the pieces?
really feel's as though I've lost this battle.