So eleven days into the New Year and the house isn't up for sale. Yeah! Small victories. Lol!
I spoke with my DB coach and had a nice session. She brought up something that I had been thinking about and some family had mentioned. She mentioned the possibility that H is either a sex or porn addict.
The funny thing is, at this point, I wouldn't be surprised. Maybe because it would explain a lot. I have no concrete evidence that this might be the case, but the fact that three other people, none of whom know each other, brought it up, certainly causes me to raise an eyebrow.
This is probably one of those questions that will never get answered. Of course, I would love to know because it would answer some questions. Would it change my decision to stand? I am not sure. From what I know about these kinds of additions, they are very hard to kick and subject to many relapses. And knowing that, I don't know if I could do it. Since I don't know either way, there really is no use taking up any more real estate in my brain thinking about it.
Overall, the session went well. It helps to be reminded that this is his crisis, these are his issues, and it isn't me.
In the meantime, I'm keeping keepin' on. Hiking, spending time with family and friends, reading, and working on me.
I read something from HB that really inspired me, it was something along the lines of "wait without waiting, stand without standing still."
