I don't know that I can add any great words of wisdom to some of the advice others are giving you, here, Miss Ginger, but what I can tell you is that you are not alone. It is SO difficult to meet decent, single men and to have to go through all this dating stuff. I wasn't good at it when I was younger and I have not gotten any better with age, unfortunately. I, too, sometimes wonder if God means for me to be alone.
Hang in there, lady, and know that others feel your pain, so to speak.
Me 52, H53 Bomb drop 9/29/2014 Divorce from XH final 12/17/2014 Marriage #2 12/31/2019 5 adult (step)daughters (3 from XH's first marriage, 2 from current H's previous relationships) 6 grandkids