You got it backwards mate. You are not waiting for her, you are waiting for you. You have to heal and come to a place of self sufficiency. You have to learn to love being by yourself an being single. Only then can you love other again. When you are needy, you seek out similar people and that is a receipe for disaster. Do not wait around for her, wait for yourself to heal and then flourish. As for standing or not standing and when to stop standing, that is a very iindividual choice to make. You have to ask yourself are aou capable of loving someone else and not hold any grudges?