Wife wants a divorce. An awakening in myself

[Gordie]

If she says she wants a D, then most likely she's been thinking about this for a long, long time. It is just news to you. Your world has been turned upside down and hers is the same Good news is you express a lot of awareness of your issues and remorse and that your W still feels enough of a connection to talk to you, do things with you and be physical with you. Bad news is it sounds like she is and has been checked out for quite a while. This is not an easy nor a short road. Read the homework and the books. Start setting goals and get support for yourself IRL and on this board. You are not alone. First step is to give her space and stop begging and chasing.