Cherry. Just trying to get on with life

[Cherry]

Sara it's just so sad. I grew up hearing my mom playing his music. He was so talented in many ways, gave so much to charities and had a great sense of humour. I would have loved to have met himh.

I am feeling a lot stronger and a lot more confident, but the occasional bit of spew can really anger me. I've recently heard him rewriting history to his mom of how he was never happy with me, and it was all a lie. And while I know he is rewriting history, it angers me that he is disrespecting me in my own home, while I'm carrying his child. It makes me feel as though I have been used. In fact I heard him while I was in the bathroom say this, I had to wait until he left before I came out, because I do know if I was face to face to him, I would have errupted and threw him out. I find that he angers me more than anything now, he sees S for about an hour once a week, and I feel like it's just a time killer as he always has somewhere to be. He's still swimming in his fog, but his negative energy really attacks the calm that I have made my home into.