Chapter 4 - Acting As If

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In the last 7 weeks there has been a change in her. She started volunteering to do our laundry (since our basement is under construction), she asks me for a ride back to her apt after her visitation, When she comes over she helps with cleaning, etc.

So I've changed a little too. I've let her eat some cake. She participated in 50% of the Christmas activities with us. I let her talk about what interests her.

I've kept up my GAL. All my projects are still in high gear. I'm being consistent in what I do and how I do it. etc.

Are we on the road to reconciliation - It's way to early to tell. Is she feeling remorseful - I don't know.

After watching the LRT videos in early November I really took to heart what MWD was saying. Somehow I've got to strike a balance between letting her feel the loss and question if her addiction is worth it and giving her a small open window to reenter her old life.

I've got to change some more - I just need to make sure it does not have me backtracking.