done my head in

[lt0402]

Maly, sorry that you're here bud. However, you are correct that this is a wonderful place. A lot of good folks here.

What are you doing for you? You say the sleep has been lacking, are you exercising? Nothing helps more than the exercise in my opinion. Next best thing is knowledge. Gaining a better understanding of yourself and the situation and realizing you're not alone will help to get you to level and alleviate the magnitude of the swings.

Are you still snooping on your W? (You mentioned following her). If you are, cut it out. That'll only drive you insane. You sound like a fighter who doesn't give up easy. That's a blessing and a curse here. You'll find you can't solve your Ws problems. She needs to work down her path and hopefully at some point she will. All you can do in the meantime is make yourself the man you want to be.

So, what are you doing to make yourself that man? What are your goals for you? You've already been on quite the roller coaster. Focusing on you will help you get and stay level. Here for you bud.