I have my first appointment with a counselor tonight. I was supposed to have one a few weeks ago, but they had to cancel because of a family emergency. My H didn't say no to me going, but he has been hesitant. For that reason, and because things have been slowly getting better, I put off rescheduling. The therapist reached out to me last Friday with new appointment times and I thought it would still be good for me to go, but I didnt say anything to H about it until last night. Again, he didnt tell me not to go, just shrugged whatever and said he didn't like the idea because it was going to turn into me complaining about the way he's been treating me/reacting to the situation and the counselor would tell me it was wrong. I told him, right there should show you that you know its wrong to react that way and he knows it. He didn't really respond to that. I told him I'm going for me regardless because when he does act that way, I don't know how to respond. Not only then, but most of the time I dont know how to act around him. He says he just wants for us to have a good time together, but when I act happy and light-hearted with him, he tells me I've moved on and am acting like nothing ever happened. Its confusing to know how to behave around him.
