Just journaling. Anger is an issue for me. In past, Vanilla has had interesting posts on anger and types of anger. For me, anger is not good because it consumes me to the point of obsession.
So I have been hashing out my anger and am coming to some conclusions...
1. I am bitter.
2. When things don't go easily in my life I resort to anger and blame upon ex. This doesn't make me feel better. It doesn't accomplish anything. It just puts me in this "wo is me mode". Which is not healthy. It feels good for a moment. But doesn't help long term.
3. My life is never going to be easy. No ones life is easy. And I really have to start changing my perspective on things if I want to be happy. "Appreciate what I do have and stop looking for things to be upset over" . Being light and happy is a goal. Being heavy and consummed with anger feels really bad.
4. Friend said "instead of accepting the way things are, you keep expecting more or thinking about the way things SHOULD be and that causes anger and is not productive." Very true. I get bogged down with my perceptions of fairness and justice. And it's irrelevant. It can become petty as well. I am getting myself mad and upset over things that didn't even happen yet.
So knowing this and rationalizing this is one thing. But how do you live and breathe this on a daily basis? How do I remember this when I get overwhelmed? Or when I read about someone else's experience?
For one, I need to act in ways that are productive. and that make me feel like I am accomplishing...
Not sure what else though and how to implement every day?
