Good for you Lowai - wow, that would be an early start! Five hours sleep is pretty good, and your sleep will improve over time as you recover from the initial trauma and become more settled.
I would encourage you to 'accept all invites' for a while. It's something I did and I found myself going places I would never have gone before. I have no regrets there. Also I found that one thing leads to another if you reach out and interact with people.
Just to give an example, I booked to go on this two day dancing event over New Year. When it came to the day - I DID NOT want to go. However, I made myself go and I had a good time. I also got invited to a Celidh (sorry about spelling) this weekend by someone at the dance event - result!
I would encourage you to drop the snooping mechanism. You may actually need to remove the option for you to snoop in order to deal with that one. Is it the cell phone and would handing the plan over to your W sort that one out?
I can hear you sounding a little better in your posts already my friend - you are definitely getting on to the right path here
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We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus
