Hi Luis be proud that u are trying to beat your addiction. Hard to conquer but doable.it takes time and many tries to remain clean. I won't beat up on you as some on here. I know you did that to yourself for many years. Not helpful.
If you want to try and save your marriage follow DB as much as you can. I hope that I'm wrong but there maybe another person in the mix.
Try and not focus on her too much. Instead focus on you because you will lose yourself in this.
Try and stay healthy. Work out read and be calm. Good luck my friend
M 53 D 20 Separated 6/22/11 moved out 10/24 Together 26 yrs Married 16 W Filed for D 7/21/11 Served 9/6/11 D final 8/28/12
“Failure is not fatal, but failure to change might be.”